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Henk's profound transformation after one ceremony
Youth trauma was processed and resolved
As promised herewith a note from me. Really took some time this past week to get eea in order. I am now full in my profound transformation and personal growth. Let me start with how the truffle ceremony went.
When I lay down on the bed and the truffles began to work, especially in the beginning I saw the fractals and geometric shapes coming in all kinds of colors. The colors that have stuck with me the most are yellow and green.
I felt myself sinking further and further. The music sounded absolutely fantastic. As I went deeper and deeper, the shapes became more beautiful and the music more intense.
It hit like a bomb
And suddenly it seemed to hit like a bomb. I was suddenly a little kid again, I don’t know how old, but I was at an age where my father wasn’t there anymore because I was yelling and screaming very loudly for my father. I felt alone and abandoned and did not understand where he had gone.
The music and all the colors and patterns began to get more and more intense and intense, and I didn’t just hear the music either. I could also just feel the music and felt it moving through my body.
The transformation began; I was released from my body
At one point I felt myself detaching from my body and seemed to go all the way to that infinite timeless space. The music started talking to me at one point. I don’t know if I was hearing a voice or if I just knew what the music was trying to say to me.
But I just felt that the universal energy I was in was eager for me to surrender. But I didn’t understand why I had to surrender and I couldn’t. I felt a tremendous resistance to surrender. The music/universal energy/God (whatever it is) kept going in waves over me and through me one and kept repeating for surrender and I just couldn’t do it.
A solid fight
I fought a fierce battle because surrendering meant letting go of control and I could not let go of it because my inner child was traumatized and severely damaged and had to be protected at all costs.
And I yelled that too to duet universe but it kept flooding me with all these waves of love. I also just felt that the universal energy was everything and everyone, and it was pumped full into my transformation.
Universal energy
I wanted to tell you what happened to me but couldn’t. I still had too much grief and the universal energy told me I couldn’t talk about it. I had to blow out all the shit that was still there and I did.
Soon after, I felt myself returning more and more to my own body. The journey was over fairly quickly but the transformation certainly wasn’t yet.
Most beautiful, difficult and intense transformation
Right after the trip I first thought that my intentions had not come true but now that I have had a week to think about it it turns out that the intentions were absolutely right.
My childhood trauma was simply pulled from my body and soul and my father was there too but not in the form I imagined. Found it 1 of the most beautiful, difficult and intense emotional things I have ever done.
Huge roller coaster
So much for my journey as best as I can describe it in words. I kept a daily record from the ceremony onwards to tick everything off and also record it.
The past week has been a huge roller coaster for me, and now I’m fairly balanced again.
Should you still want to know how last week was let me know. Then I crawl behind my laptoppie to send you a message. Anyway greetings from Twente and until next time 🙂
Greetings,
Henk
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